i really really miss you alot...

this feeling's getting stronger and stronger every day

wat i'm gonna do??

wat should i do??

i wanna tell you how much i miss you

how much i love you

but i dont wan you to feel the pressure

i dont wan you to feel the burden

i dont wan you to feel guilty for always leaving me alone

everyday when i miss you..

the most i do is just open my phone and stare

i dont dare to msg you...

i scared i disturb you

i wan you to be focus

when you told me you got lots more to study

maybe we should arrange our time to contact

i scared....i cried

maybe coz of missing you too much too

i scared this would end up to be a habit

i scared it's just the beginning and you are tat busy

wat's gonna be in future??

i knew this will be happened at the very beginning

when you say your ambition is to be doctor

but i dont know it will happened tat fast

now my left brain and right brain are fighting with each other

i dont know which side should i choose

should i be selfish or should i be generous???

everyday i keep imagining the image of us studying together in the same school

when i'm alone in the room

studying together at night

it's sweet and nice but i dont wan it...

if you really study here instead of going to indo

then maybe i would not know how much i love you

after wat you had said the day before yesterday

i've decided not to online so early

let you nap and study awhile first

tin...

i dont need you to keep entertain me when we online

you just need to let me see you

you can continue to study...

i can take care of myself...

i can study my things i can do my things

just tat i hope when i look up to the laptop screen i can see you

and i can take it as if we are sitting down study together side by side

feel the existence of you in my life