i really really miss you alot...

this feeling's getting stronger and stronger every day

wat i'm gonna do??

wat should i do??

i wanna tell you how much i miss you

how much i love you

but i dont wan you to feel the pressure

i dont wan you to feel the burden

i dont wan you to feel guilty for always leaving me alone

everyday when i miss you..

the most i do is just open my phone and stare

i dont dare to msg you...

i scared i disturb you

i wan you to be focus

when you told me you got lots more to study

maybe we should arrange our time to contact

i scared....i cried

maybe coz of missing you too much too

i scared this would end up to be a habit

i scared it's just the beginning and you are tat busy

wat's gonna be in future??

i knew this will be happened at the very beginning

when you say your ambition is to be doctor

but i dont know it will happened tat fast

now my left brain and right brain are fighting with each other

i dont know which side should i choose

should i be selfish or should i be generous???

everyday i keep imagining the image of us studying together in the same school

when i'm alone in the room

studying together at night

it's sweet and nice but i dont wan it...

if you really study here instead of going to indo

then maybe i would not know how much i love you

after wat you had said the day before yesterday

i've decided not to online so early

let you nap and study awhile first

tin...

i dont need you to keep entertain me when we online

you just need to let me see you

you can continue to study...

i can take care of myself...

i can study my things i can do my things

just tat i hope when i look up to the laptop screen i can see you

and i can take it as if we are sitting down study together side by side

feel the existence of you in my life

Hmm..woke up at 9.30am here..( means Malaysia is 10.30 now )..
Brush my teeth n clean my room

while waiting for my roommate Dr Jasdev Singh to wake up.

Then head to the gym..work out time...

he is sleeping like a pig now..
hahaha

I ald adapt myself here

although deep in my heart im missing Ms.Cheong Xing Yi..
and also my family.. back in Malaysia

Thinking thinking and thinking of wat shud 1 post here 2day....

hmmm...jeng jeng jeng jeng....

haha decided to post the picture of my Sleeping Beauty..

sleeping like a baby..BIG BABY..hehe

it has been awhile i never see you face to face d

miss you so much...

all i can see everyday is this pictures that i take thru skype

but it's more than enough d for this moment^^

at least i still can see you everyday

talk with you everyday

i dont dare to ask for more d

eh tomato...study nicely ya...

dont keep thinking y you choose to go there d

since you already move the step then continue it

i believe your choice

so trust yourself also^^

things cannot be backward and restart again 1 o...

gambateh

just like our feeling towards each other

once it's on then it's on

you cannot ask me to keep bak all the feelings d...hehe

die die la you...kena tied forever d =p

innocent look but actually he's not..hehe =p

O.O sexy~ =p

the big baby
muackzzzz


so nice to look at his sleeping face

i'm so lucky today

coz you are the 1st person i saw

after i wake up this morning

you cheer my day up

^^

i have no idea wat to say

wat to talk

hmm...i'm a bad speaker

haiz...

hope i'm not a boring person for you

i just wanna stare at you

look at your face

23 more days

you will be bak

cant wait for the arrival of the day

hmm...dear...

you are so geng

like nothings can beat you down

i cannot be too behind of you

must catch up

follow your footstep

now all i wanna do is just

study together with you

work hard together with you

give out our best together

^^

Dear, this is the 3rd day in Indonesia..life without u is really difficult..
Look at those time when v r together..v really look out for each other
and maximize the time spending on each other...
This also continue here my dear ^^..

Thank God there is Internet connection here o..Miss u a lot o ^^ nvm now v can chat..
Although the line is a bit slow but it consider very lucky ald to have 1...
hahaha...cant expect much le rite..dear ?

Dear...as i said , v muz b strong ok? This is our exam to secure our relationship in the future..
and all the time that v sacrificed here..will b compensated very soon ^^..
The reward will b very very extraordinary ^^..juz like having u in my life..
IT'S A MIRACLE ^^...muackz ..

5 yrs = 5 X 365 days X 24 hours ^^

so...i think rite..very soon v will b able 2 b together..^^
as v said our plan was to move out n stay together ^^
i juz cant wait for that 2 happen ^^

Dun b sad ya..^^ promise when anything happen to one of us...
we wil b there for each other..I did always mention..as a couple ^^
enjoy means enjoy together , suffer means suffer together..
Together v form a very very very powerful strength ^^
which nothing can defeat us ...

hehehehe...the main point is i wanna u 2 stay strong ok..
Muackz..love u so much ^^

2nd day

still miss you lot

continue on everything

waiting for you to online

cant leave my phone my laptop again

miss your face

miss you voice

again how are you there?

make new friends d?

life still ok there?

so wish i can by your side now

how i wish i can

T_T

gasping for air now

miss you miss you

dear...

1 day without you...

is so difficult...

the time pass so slow...

heartbeat is so hard

is like banging the wall inside

i need to breath harder

to capture the air

without you

the air become thinner

i feel colder

my life bak to a straight line

every moment

i keep thinking

how are you?are you ok?

wat are you doing now?

i miss you alot how bout you?

you eat d?bath d?

are you tired?

i dont dare to go toilet

scared later you call

dont dare to leave my hp

scared later you msg

on my msn skype and fb whole day

dont dare to leave

scared later you online

i miss you dear

miss you a lot a lot

you are very very very important to me

i need you

i cannot cry

coz you need me now

i must be strong^^

tonight...

i scared to sleep

i scared once i relax

my water paip will on again

i scared once i close my eyes

our memories flash bak

your face appear

then my tears running out again

i scared i nightmare again

and scream alone in the dark

i scared when you cannot sleep

msg me tat time i never notice

dear

*hug hug*